Monday, April 05, 2004
it's not the fact that i played terribly. it's the knowledge that i could have done better.
i don't get it.
what is it about auds that freaks me out.
isn't it just more people listening to your playing?
i don't get it at all.
jasmine 8:18:00 PM
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
isn't it meaningless not to have a goal in life?
not to have something to reach for?
hai.
jasmine 10:06:00 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
hi everyone! I've come down quite a bit... not surprising, considering the fact that school starts again tmr... sigh :(. so. not so high anymore :(. tragic.
this page is getting VERY long. I should go and make another layout. but then rite... heh. i don't really think i can do it anytime soon since school's starting again. and i can't do it today COS... of certain obvious reasons :(. hai :(. suppose i could get one from the net but most of them are not really my style. :(. maybe i can do one next week. *smiles* hopefully i will have finished all my e-learning hmwk by then...
*gasps in pain* oh no i said it i said it i named it that must not be named i'm dying... *gasps some more and drops dead* hai.
bye i have to go do all the horrible stuff that must not be named :(. you can come and look for me next year i will still be stuck here man... :(
anyone who knows where to get layouts that i might like... please come and help me :). i'm slightly sick of my layout :P
jasmine 8:14:00 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
I'm HIGH!!!!
see, the HIGHest entry in the page.
*claps loudly*
jasmine 1:12:00 AM
hehe i AM back as you all can see :):) Tada!!! think my brother's too tired to come to steal the com from me when i'm away. lala
our sb is so cool
there's soph who knows and remembers everything so we can ask her whenever we don't understand anything...
there's eyeballs who does her work REALLY REALLY fast so we can er borrow her work for er reference :P
there's emm to suan you so you make sure you work harder and SHOW her >| hehe
there's mable who is always nice and will help you when you need it
then of course... there's me... who asks for simpler explanations, borrows reference materials, get's suanned happily cos i can suan back quite well, and always needs help from nice people. cos there's people to provide the services mah, then must have people who need and use the services. see. me important. boost the -economy-. or whatever. heh.
lala
i'm still bored. though i only finished half of my e-learning it that must not be named. hehe but then it's actually the easier half :D. so i have the harder half to do. *smiles serenely* peace!
dotz. i'm getting incoherent. lahz. happy happy. hahahahahaha. do you think i can sleep with the can at some mrt station tmr then all the people who walk past will instantly notice me and put all their coins into the can? then i sleep in the middle of the path so i'm more noticeable *smiles*
funny funny funny funny. my msn status says busy. guess what i'm busy doing harharharharharharharharharharharharhar. guess what i was supposed to be doing harharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharharhar.
funny
funny
i'm VERY crappy
I think i'm nuts
I shall go and eat myself up
Nuts are nice
bye!!! :D
jasmine 12:57:00 AM
Friday, March 26, 2004
hI evEryOne!!!!!!!!!! *hops up and down excitedly*...
hehe look at the last time i posted... about 2 years ago. heh. miss AlL of YOu!!! erpz. heh. more like you all missed me. :D
my brother's been nice to me since he came back :D. maybe he realised he can't live without me when he was staying in the camp or whatever. aww...
Maybe i'll consider getting him a birthday present :)
IF i have money
Since his birthday is the day before cadenza
I think he's out of luck :D
too bad...
heh.
i am in a good mood today :D. don't ask. just am. heh. maybe cos of my stoning session in the morning. maybe maybe. heh. i feel dangerous. but i don't feel dangerous. I'm happily slacking. and i don't know why i'm not worrying at all. maybe i just don't care anymore. hai. maybe i'm just in a too good mood o_O. hehe. lalalallala.
I want to go to taka to visit my little red riding hood :) she will be so happy to see me :). lala.
my sister's birthday's coming soon too. hai i'm going to be not broke at all :P. heh. do you think she will mind getting a packet of tissue for her birthday? cos i got the packet of tissue that we bought from the poor woman. hehe. see first. :P
I am being chao chao crappy. too bad... there's so many things to write i'm not writing anything at all. hai. oh my mentos fell into the piano and i can't get it out. i'm posting it here... maybe you will feel guilty for the rest of your life and hopefully you'll buy me a new tube of mentos everyday :D. yay. please say you will... :D <-- hopeful smile.
hangman is very funny. it's really really funny. hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.
the sb xian2 guang4 was so funny :P. we didn't do anything at all :P. hahahahahaha
i'm getting very high quick pull me down.
and everything reminds emm of butterfly effect. or whatever. i don't even know what it is :(.
I SHOULD be doing you-know-what right? hai. shouldn't spoil my mood with all the it that must not be named :D. lala
i'm really going mad.
maybe i can go and rob a bank then i can get enough money to buy nice cadenza presents and birthday presents for my brother and sister. hm. maybe if i bargain with them... tell them i only need about half a million dollars, and i'm only borrowing and will return it to them when i earn that much money [not going to happen in this lifetime but they're not supposed to know that]... maybe they will willingly give it to me and not come after me after that, and maybe they will give me a real gun instead of the water gun i'm going to use, so i don't have to use the water gun for the next robbery...
Then maybe i can hire someone to do my e-learning you-know-what
And i can hire someone to chaffeur [sp?] me around so i can bring aleathea home even when it's raining.
and then there's the assasins [sp?] i have to hire to help me take care of them who must not be named. hmm.
My spelling ability is failing me. I KNOW i know how to spell the words but i can't think of the correct spelling now. as in i'm not sure if they're correct :(. hai :(.
The disgusting gep walkathon [sp? shit not again] tmr :(. cannot go for band prac. SLAP THEM SLAP THEM :). *smiles* i think my slaps are quite painful see the red marks on their faces? [heh actually never tried to slap anyone before... think my sister will mind me practising on her?]
I should stop being disgusting :(. i'm just talking rubbish :(. but it's fun :D:D:D.
so let's continue.
Nabucco very killer :( i can't even sing the parts fast enough how to play :(. and i sound disgusting. maybe i should hide under the chair for the whole song and don't play. then the song will sound so nice :). at the most i'll come out to play the last note then no one will notice that i was hiding under the chair for the whole song. so clever rite :). hai i should just hide under the chair for the whole concert. *smiles*. then maybe i can sneak out and pretend to be a sec one doing ticketing if i get bored of being under the chair :). yay.
i'm going off for a while. don't miss me too much. i'll be back. [i hope]. bye! :)
jasmine 11:03:00 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
:(:(. Didn't finish my homework yesterday :(. no time :(. my recess is going to be so busy :P. good luck to me:(:(.
jasmine 8:54:00 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
oh no i'm such a horrible person :(. i couldn't find anything so shuhui had to help me crap up some stuff when she was only supposed to compile :(. sorry :(. but they should ban tourism sites. haiz. totally obstructs the learning of geog students :(. heh.
hai i really suck... i want to do strange things at all the wrong times. last night i was doing my horrid homework until very late cos why? cos I rearranged my homework time and my sleeping time by stupidly falling asleep. I was just sitting on the sofa and i fell asleep. I didn't even feel myself close my eyes. I just fell asleep. I probably fell asleep before I closed my eyes or something. SO, I had to finish my homework later, but I still didn't finish lah. I fell asleep again :(. was rushing today :(. and it's not like my fault. I didn't even sense myself going all sleepy and distracted. I just dropped dead or something. :(. and i still want to sleep now. bye all shall go and do homework. oh i don't want to take geog :(. It's the humans sub with the most homework so far :(. AND I only took it cos I have to take at least one :(. If only they had another science... I would just go and take all four sciences then I probably won't fail even one sub. haha i wish. well whatever. bye.
jasmine 9:30:00 PM
Saturday, January 31, 2004
It seems like I only come to say stuff when I am depressed or pissed or in some sort of trouble or another. More trouble now. She can go and die. some stupid quota thing cos some other random people who don't really need the juniors anyway don't have enough. last year when there weren't enough for us she didn't bloody CARE. And we were so happy lorh. we were like 60+? It's like so many. could even make up for the sec 2s' small batch. and now what? RETARDS happily come along and tell us we have to cut the number by HALF. They don't freaking care lah. I mean like lots of ccas are taking below their quota because they cannot take anymore or don't want to. Then doesn't it mean that we can take all the extras? It's so bloody UNFAIR. And we like PROMISED them they were DEFINITELY in band. and in our section. we already auditioned them once cos we didn't have enough instrus. now this retarded things comes along and we have to audition them again. it's like we're breaking our promise to them. again. why can't we just take all who want to join anyway. if they have to stick to their stupid quota people will have to join ccas they don't even WANT to join. shouldn't they just let them choose what they want to be in? if you force them to join some cca they're not even interested in they will just sit there and take up space and not even put in effort to learn anything... then what's the whole point of ccas anyway. it should be for people to pursue their interests like beyond school. if they're like stuffed into just any cca they'll really suffer lorh. it's like all the times you have to go for practices become a burden. people should also be allowed to relax and enjoy themselves outside of school time, not continue suffering in their cca even after school. WHATEVER. may her insides rot and blood spurt out from her eyes and nose and mouth and ears. heh. we were happily cursing them all just now... we were really very very pissed lah. and i just suddenly felt so inadequate... my tiny vocabulary of curses really kills me sometimes. I just want to say things that I don't know how to, to curse people with more viscious stuff :P. WHY ARE THEY SO DISGUSTING MAN. anyway if our curses work they should all be dead in about three days. save us from plotting her murder. actually we already started on it. our first plan was emm will hold the knife and stab her and i can prepare to run so only her fingerprints will be on the knife. then I won't be caught :D. then emm protested, so me, being the nice person I am, offered to be the one to hold the knife instead. then emm can bring along a rope and strangle her while i prepare to run with the knife :D.
Anyway something to cheer ya'll up... they're showing moulin rouge on tv :D:D:D. heh. brings back memories :). go watch :)
AND ANYWAY... teletubbies can too watch peter pan on their tummy tvs! and yeah... my shoutouts are spoilt so emm can't say they can't :D. hah. and actually peter pan is a movie about the teletubbies. really. and then all the pictures of peter pan on the adverts right, they come from the scene when the teletubbies are watching peter pan on their tummy tvs :D. then people will come and watch. cos they think it's about peter pan but actually it's about the teletubbies. really. *nods seriously*. hehx. i hope her insides have started rotting.
jasmine 7:14:00 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2004
FORGET IT MY STUPID DEADED BRAIN IS NOT GOING TO SPEW OUT ANY WONDERFUL IDEAS NOW I'M GOING TO SLEEP
jasmine 11:51:00 PM
i feel very horrible. i need to cry. there's no time. shit. fine. i'm sorry but crying really helps. for me anyway. i always feel better after crying. and now i feel like crying because of the lack of time to cry :(. still on my commonwealth essay. and i have about twenty minutes of today plus whatever i need of tomorrow [whatever i need must not exceed 6 hours cos then i have to go to school maybe i can just give up oh well]. BYE
jasmine 11:43:00 PM
hi everyone!!! heh. school starts again tmr :(. feels so horrible :(. back to school again. i really really cannot concentrate on my homework. i have to take a lot a lot of breaks then i never get anything done. even if i don't take breaks i'll just end up staring at the stupid BLANK piece of paper. i have to do the commonwealth essay but there's no inspiration :(. i can't think of a plot :(:(. and some stupid chinese thing i don't even understand. Then i really cannot concentrate. and there's visitors now. even more difficult to concentrate *looks around unhappily for a time turner so i can go back to nursery school*. like really. in nursery i really enjoyed 'school'. everyday, the homework was some colouring or another. i really loved it. now? a million stupid things to do and they're not only time consuming, they're pointless as well. colouring was -quite- pointless but at least i enjoyed it. and at the most if i really had no time to colour nicely i could just pretend i had absolutely no talent for colouring that kind of picture for that day and anyhow colour. no one would actually come after me. now if i just slack a bit and give some crap work, see if my head doesn't come rolling. i really really hate this. and see. i'm not even supposed to be blogging. but i really couldn't stare at the homework anymore. so i came to the com to find things to do [finding things to do on the com usually means blogging tho...]. so. here i am. losing grip of my resolution. the longest i ever had, if i remember correctly. i used to just forget about all the resolutions by the second day of school [which was when the homework really came anyway... first days were always crap]. this year i really really want to do better lorh. all the years last time i just told myself i had to do better but never did anything about it, besides the one day resolutions. this year i'm like really trying. but still... i never seem to be able to do anything right. that first piece of english homework, i already screwed it up. it was the essay outline for the commonwealth essay. i remember there was a lot of homework that day. i couldn't finish it lorh. then when i finally got to start on the outline, i was so glad it was the last piece of work. but absolutely NO inspiration came to me. important things like that always fail to come to me when i most need them. i was like thinking and thinking and i still didn't come up with anything... it was very irritating. AND i fell asleep before i got anything on that stupid piece of paper. woke up at five plus with an aching neck cos sleeping at the table isn't very comfortable. then i suddenly remembered the stupid thing was due in a few hours. i was like writing crap for the sake of writing SOMETHING to hand in, i was so desperate to hang on to my resolution of handing in all my homework on time. in the end my essay outline was obviously crap lah. there isn't even a plot. it's just some words on paper and very very brief run through of the story. as in i know what i want to write about, but i can't get the details right. everything just doesn't fit. i don't even know anything anymore. i really really want somebody to come and help me with it. but obviously that's NOT going to happen. so good luck to me. and i had better finish everything by tomorrow.
jasmine 7:11:00 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2004
heh happy new year everyone.
my sister is so retarded... :P. she gave piglet an ang bao with sweets inside. and ended up eating it herself :D. haha.
indived yesterday :D:D. to save myself from the terrible consequences of having only practised once in two weeks [obs + cny]. hehe. so i only didn't practise for half a week now :P.
jasmine 11:16:00 AM
Monday, January 19, 2004
:(. ok i think emm doesn't read my blog or there would have been a million messages by now... :P
felt very very lost just now can. better now. i was trying to choose between indiv and homework. they are like both equally important. and they are both quite urgent. there is so much homework, i have to rush and get everything done. but if i don't indiv today there'll be no time tomorrow. and the day after... ha. my mom will definitely not let me do anything like that on new year's eve. and obviously not new year either. then the last time i touched my instru was saturday during sectionals, and i didn't sound that great either. stupid obs. i didn't practise for one week and ended up sounding disgusting. now it's another stupid week unless i practice tomorrow. which isn't very possible. my mind was just whirling and whirling cos i really have a lot a lot of homework and a lot a lot of indiv to catch up on. and i wasn't even in a mood to think it through carefully. i just knew i had to choose indiv or homework cos there was no way i could do both if i wanted to get anything done... then i wasn't even thinking and started stoning in the corr waiting for the answer to drop down from the sky. :(. finally in a spurt of sudden decision i decided to come home. and i don't even know why. and now i'm home but there's so much homework i don't know where to start. so i decided to give myself a blog break [though i'm not supposed to]. maybe at the end of all the blogging i will start thinking and know where i'm supposed to start. maybe. then there's still indiv. when on earth can i do it man. i really don't know anything now lah. and it was even worse just now cos i was thinking about this third thing that had been hanging over me for a few days already. you certainly chose a right time to be angry at me. i was really bothered about it lah. i really can't stand having any of you angry at me. then since this third thing is more or less sorted out now... [i hope]... i don't feel so horrible and frustrated now. feel much better with one less thing to worry about. can think more about my homework and my indiv. but STILL. i don't know what to do. whatEVER. i hate it. and the teachers are not going to let us off and are STILL going to give holiday homework as usual. though obviously people WON'T be home to do stupid homework. so happy. then still got indiv that cannot be done cos of various reasons... i hate cny man... [besides the ang baos lah... but that's BESIDE the point]... it's like still must wake up early everyday, go to people's houses doing stupid things and being bored. i mean HELLO! holidays are NOT like that. and teachers should realise that as well and pretend there's no holidays... just some lapse in time or something. dotses. AND i can't indiv >|
anyway... am feeling MUCH happier now cos i know for sure the thing is over. just a nice chat over the phone crapping about just about everything like we used to *smiles happily*. ok i feel ready to think now. bye! shall go do my homework :):)
jasmine 6:06:00 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2004
oh ya emm and mable fell sick right after obs. so lou-sy. *sticks out tongue* you see soph and i still so alive and healthy :D. *beams at emm who has nice red spots all over*
jasmine 11:15:00 PM
hi all. back from obs :(. school again :(:(. obs was fun. but i don't want to go again. it's so tiring :(. carry all the stupid food around... and eating half cooked rice [!]. the cooking part was quite sad lah... cos you look at my class... how many people can cook... we just ate maggie mee everyday cos it's easiest :D. threw away the rice cos no one knew how to cook it :P. on the first day we ate at camp one we were like wondering why the food was so horrible... then on the last day when we went back there to eat it was like eating proper FOOD. we all felt so happy :D. so glad to be eating food that we didn't cook ourselves... heh. we're totally hopeless man... condolences to whoever the cooking teacher is... and good luck for this year... next year... and all the years after that. heh. kayaking is irritating, trekking is irritating etc etc. as in they're quite fun... but it gets tiring after a while and it's hard to clean up... i mean... i stink after treks and all sandy after kayaking :(. but skipping school is fun :D. heh. whatever. didn't get burnt. i never get burnt *beams brightly at yiqing and eliza*. only my scalp gets burnt and ya... it's slightly burnt. hehe. *smiles*. rescuing the sea ex people was so cool... all the land ex people got mobilised [?] to rescue the sea ex people on that day cos when they reached it was like nine plus and very dark already, then there was a thunderstorm coming and the wind was so strong and blowing against all of them. All of them looked very freaked and scared. it was very very bad. and they all looked very tired. so we helped them get all the kayaks in and all their bags in. think yiqing was one of them. poor yiqing :P.
we have 64 sec ones! omg. i mean like 64. it's like so many :D:D. there's really a lot a lot. but then clarinets could only take eight cos we don't have enough instrus :(. the brasses have like a LOT. and then flutes could only take four or sth cos they ALSO don't have enough instrus. sighz. then there's ten percs. heh. nice. so so cool! 64. if only we had enough instrus. then we can take more clars. heh. so sad :(. 64.
jasmine 10:39:00 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
heyy. o k. really really haven't been using the com for no reason now [also one of the reasons why my blog feels so strangely neglected]. i really really only use it for homework. this is the first time since school reopened that i'm using the com. and only cos i had proper stuff to do just now. and i am done. and i have finished all the homework our teachers have kindly bestowed on us [er dotses]. as in every single piece. and have read through all the notes i have got so far again and again. and the maths textbook [though for what i don't know... :P]. so. i've revised my stuff and finished all my work :). so far so good... i'm keeping to my new year resolution :). so i decided to reward myself by letting me blog :). heh.
am very VERY sleepy :(. yesterday stayed up until very very late to finish revising and doing all the homework :(. no as in the homework wasn't due today, but it's part of my new year resolution see :D.
so. hi everyone. hi blog. i feel like i yu3 shi4 ge2 jue2ed for 5 years... don't see how i survived without touching the com. heh. i mean... isn't the com the thing that's supposed to charge you up when you're all low batted and de-energized at the end of the day... :(. lala.
ok i have decided to like all my teachers then maybe they will like me back? *hopeful look* heh. they all hated me last year :(. maybe cos they know i hated them :D. hah.
oh my left eyelid is changing. last time my eyelids used to be uneven. both double, but the right eye one was overlapping each other a bit so it was obvious. the left eye just had a line to indicate the doubleness. now my left eye is growing to become like my right eye. was quite freaked that day when i saw in the mirror. was wondering when it changed :(P. COS i don't go around preening in every surface that reflects even a vague shadow of my face. no i'm not growing to be like you :D. but then i decided it should be good cos then my face is more symmetrical [sp?] now and according to eyeballs it's nicer. eyeballs keeps saying a perfect face or something is a symmetrical one. or something. that's why marilyn [sp?] monroe [sp?] is considered pretty. no but i think she's ugly. oh no if i'm going to be like her i want my eyelid back *alarmed look*. hai i don't know. eyeballs is the expert :P. she can identify people with nice noses and nice ankles when to me their noses and ankles look the same as everyone else's :P. yes i DO think she's really good at this. and she can tell if you look like your mom or your dad. hm. even without having met my mom and my dad. she told me who all my features came from in the mrt that day. heh. and she hasn't even met my mom and dad. o_O.
heh. ok. i shall yu3 shi4 ge2 jue2 again. bye everyone. see you in about three years. boohoohoo *sob sob* :(
jasmine 11:19:00 PM
Monday, December 29, 2003
well i'm back. again.
and i hate all of them. again. if you're reading this it's not you. they don't know i have a blog. which is quite good i suppose. they probably don't even notice my existence. fine so i'm transparent. whatever.
was quite pissed at them. just less than an hour ago. somewhat cooled down. already. i'm a nice person to be mean to isn't it. fine. so you all love it.
have decided to decide that cross stitching is like the easiest kind of sewing to do. it just looks so easy. if i do it it won't look like a bundle of string [at least i think not... i hope not]. like the cloth got into a fight with a pile of string and obviously lost. hmm. should experiment or something.
hey guess what. i got inspiration for a new blog layout. from a passing taxi. but then i lost it. i forgot what i was going to do :(. should have written it down. how inspiration just flies away if you don't hold on tightly. hmm. should be like that whatever guy and bring a notebook around with me so i can write down whatever inspiration i get. really ok. some guy in some book or some show does that. and i should do it too. whenever an unimaginative person gets any idea it's very cool ok.
everyone on my msn contact list and put their class in their nick is not in the same class as me :(. so. saad. hmm.
jasmine 11:03:00 PM
sleepyz..... sighz... i'm bored and am falling asleep cos i'm bored. i know i know... i just blogged a few seconds ago or something... but then i'm bored now. crapping to fill up space, fill up time etc etc. i'm so bored i'm trying to close my eyes and type with one hand crossed over the other :(. i see a lot of typo errors whenever i open my eyes to check. i'm pretending not to see it. later can edit everything at one go :D. i've been crapping for a long time already... why is the entry still so short. it's supposed to be long so i can get sick of my boredness and crappiness then i can go and sleep. or watch tv. or something. think it's long enough? no. fine. let's talk about our batch's gambling streak [tkam!]. k. we have a gambling streak. we love to gamble :). fine. bye bye. the phone's ringing. i'm too lazy to go and pick it up. *beams brightly at whoever's calling*
jasmine 3:02:00 PM
heh i've decided that i have lost that stupid chinese book *frowns*. good riddance to bad rubbish anyway. heex. but then i have to find some way to bring a BOOK to class whichever time we're having the kao cha [hmm... that's a bit hard... since half the people i've asked have lost theirs too... let's say half our batch loses the book... 11 books is a little little to go around... :(] hehe. whatever. xiling's lending me her book to do my homework cos she finished hers. what if her kao cha same day as mine? die. is open book somemore :(. we seldom have open book then if open book i never bring book to open [:D] then so wasted... :(. ANYWAY. inet is RETARDED. they just tell you what class you get in. it doesn't give you the whole class list or something. i don't CARE what class i get into. i just want to see who's in my class *frowns*. so retarded. my sister is playing some spastic game where the bad guy is shuaier than the good guy. *frowns*. fine. but shuai bad guys are always shuaier than shuai good guys :). [but still... bad guys are supposed to be unshuai and the good guys are supposed to be the shuai ones... *frowns*]. *frowns again for effect*
jasmine 2:47:00 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
oh. forgot to say that we rearranged the love triangle into a love square :D. heh. so guys don't crush guys and girls don't crush girls :). hehe. it's funny.
merry christmas everyone! :). well yeah merry christmas. eyeballs thanks for the christmas present :).
my head hurts :(. maybe i'm getting sick like soph :P. maybe i can be sick until like feb or something then i will have more time to finish my holiday homework :P. in case you're wondering, i haven't started. hehe. never mind. i did my chinese on the first day of school in the morning this year :D. maybe i can do something like that. hey i tried to do it earlier ok! that day i took the chinese book and tried to read it, then it was so damn cheem, half an hour later i was still halfway through the first page. really! i'm not joking. then later i finally got to the second page and the 'story' started talking about where the author got inspiration for the book or something. then i realised i was reading the introduction of the book! o_O. i just wasted about 45 minutes reading something i didn't even have to and wasn't even enjoyable :(. i just don't understand chinese books :(. i never know where the story starts and where it ends. it's just so complicated :( haiya now i know where THIS book's story starts... i shall read it someday.
jasmine 10:29:00 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
don't see why my mom didn't let me stay over. i was very angry with her. and i was angry at the fact that she didn't bother to explain why. she just said no. no. she could at least have offered an explanation. i was just filled with this sense of injustice being done to me. she could have just explained.
sb outing was fun :). eyeballs is a chao good blades teacher man... mable and her pulled me along and pulled and pulled until finally we reached the place with the railings on both sides to stop people from falling into the sea. then she told me oh we go first we'll come back for you in 20 minutes you had better know how to blade by then then we can all blade together o_O. ok fine it probably is a way of teaching... pressure. time constraint o_O. but er... ok. but i got it in the 20 minutes anyway :D. i got it in about 10 minutes... was considering going to look for them myself but then decided i didn't know how to stop myself, and if i had to stop i would crash into the bushes or something :P. so i stayed there and practised stopping :P. which i thought was harder than actually blading. i mean... you just press the thing on the bicycle and it will stop... but there's nothing on the blades for you to press o_O [obviously not but still] [even if they had i would have to bend down to press it and 1. it would still be too late and 2. i would lose my balance and fall anyway... might as well just plop myself down on the ground to stop o_O]. walked around in suntec... quite a boring place actually. ended up playing bridge in sky garden :P [us the gamblers :D]. had dinner at sky garden too :). it's a nice place actually. and after dinner we were being retarded and asking a lot of different people to help us take a lot of photos :P. heh. but it was fun :). soph did ddr!! fine we made her but still... [and not mentioning the fact that emm paired with her...] they looked ridiculous :D. should have stolen emm's camera to take a picture :D. it was very very funny :). and buggy rides are so cool. and i think suntec is so cool to have free buggy rides :D. heh. it was a fun day :)
jasmine 11:40:00 PM
Monday, December 22, 2003
decided to go for an sb outing on christmas eve. hope soph can come. haven't been able to contact her. or sth. we even got the whole thing planned out :). hehe. going to school tmr :). so i can get aleathea :). haven't practice for two days :(. but i couldn't bring aleathea home on saturday. it was raining :(. then today i couldn't wake up >|. heex.
jasmine 10:29:00 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2003
Been very bored at home nowadays. Now that i always bring my instru home, i don't have an excuse to go to school anymore :(. so i decided to keep my instru back in :D. haha. then my mom will have to bring me to school. heex. woke up at six plus today. feel very energetic now :). ok fine. it's cos i slept at eleven :(. hmph. haha. whatever. boreded. i don't have my instru with me. now i don't know what to do... i just spent two and a half hours stoning :P. and there's still the rest of the day. haiya.
jasmine 9:06:00 AM
Monday, December 15, 2003
tired. i want to sleep, but can't get into the mood to. i want to use the com, but there's nothing to do. i am bored but feel perfectly fine about it. my life is a pile of contradictions. whatever. look.
nice? my sister did it for me :)
jasmine 2:08:00 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2003
i hate myself. i'm getting more and more frustrated at stuff and i cry easily. i almost cried yesterday. i just couldn't believe i was wasting another day. but i waited longer for someone to come. emmaline and yiqing were sleeping or something. they like refused to reply to my smses asking for their numbers. i was just generally damn irritated with myself and everyone in the world. i was already on the verge of tears again when i called her [got her number from the sec 1s. emmaline and yiqing were STILL decidedly ignoring me]. thought i sounded whiny but whatever. my throat was too constricted for me to talk properly. and people happily started appearing after i had waited for two hours [though i DID stop waiting for them or even hoping they would appear after i got the bandroom open. who cares about them as long as i have aleathea >{]. i cheered up later as my whole section batch appeared and sounded un-whiny again [though i was still angry at them] [probably unreasonably, but yes. they were supposed to come hours ago. they told me they were all coming but nobody told me what time they were coming. nobody told me it was at NINE]. but it's hard to stay angry at your section batch. i gradually grew un-angry at them lah. but it's mostly cos i was playing and concentrating on getting my embrochure etc etc back [after one week of not playing, it felt strange.] and forgot about it. well. now i have aleathea back. i shall never put it in again for the whole of the hols. the bandroom won't be open that often. i will bring her around.
jasmine 11:05:00 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
heex. section chalet was. cool, i guess. everybody went to sleep so early on the first night >|. i was how bored can. and i couldn't sleep. then i decided to go and bathe. then after that i was STILL bored. so i played bridge with piglet and two dummies. and lots of other spasticated games. with PIGLET. finally i was SO bored i started feeling sleepy and went to sleep. at 3 plus. then i woke up at 6 plus. same thing happened on the second night. only i felt bored and slept first. then woke up in the middle of the night and continued being bored :(. and nobody wanted to play with me :(. i even tried smsing soph and eyeballs but then they were both asleep as well. [who wouldn't be, at 4am... no wait i woke up at 4am and only tried smsing them at 5 plus or 6. but STILL. 5 plus is also a horrid time to be up...]. aiya then it was damn boring during the second and third days as well cos emm and eyeballs were suffering from lack of sleep [though they both slept more than me...] and didn't really want to play :(.
the coincidences in life amuse me :). it's really really funny. i almost died laughing. oh well... shall die next time. not yet.
jasmine 8:23:00 PM
Sunday, December 07, 2003
oops... but still... i bet they all knew already... and don't use my full name *cries*... you know perfectly well i don't like my chinese name :(.
still can't help feeling they had a happier and nicer inunion than us cos we went to screw it up... if only we could turn time back... but there's no such thing to help us... just stuck with what we have done and what we could have avoided doing.
jasmine 4:37:00 PM
Friday, December 05, 2003
oh guess what. i cleverly chipped my reed (badly) yesterday. like two days before inunion. and right when fengyi was taking us. and it's really unusable anymore. the whole thing is bent everywhere and chipped into a million pieces. no sound comes out when i use it. cos my clarinet was a bit stuckish so i shook it. then there was like two bars rest in merry [not very long...] so i took the chance to try and shake it awake. then i didn't take it far enough away from my mouth and gave it a violent shake. then my mouthpiece hit my teeth and my gum started bleeding and the reed was chipped. so obviously i didn't get to play much the rest of the time [luckily fengyi was finishing]. then i had to go and ask for another reed. i asked for a size three cos i can't season a size 3.5 in one day [while i can actually get a size 3 reed reasonably seasoned in about 2 hours...]. and i think they all think i'm mad... getting a new reed two days before inunion :P. whatever *frowns*. inunion tmr... still can't believe it's already here... it seems so. soon. i feel so unprepared and taken by surprise. and i still don't see how we're already close to our second inunion. how can the year be gone already... it feels like the days slipped by when i wasn't looking...anyway. i think all the sec 3s know about eyeballs and her three burgers now... and since they already know part of the story, i shall complete the incomplete version they have :D. eyeballs ate one upsized whopper meal plus two burgers, one stawberry pie, and er... our fries :P. it was very amusing when emm and eyeballs pretended to go to the toilet and ended up coming back with another burger for eyeballs :D. haha. it was funny :D. heex.
jasmine 6:35:00 PM
Monday, December 01, 2003
haha :D. aleathea is ok again :D. just before inunion too :D. i have just enough time to get used to using aleathea again :). oh emm and i were feeling nice that day so we bought mood rings for our whole sb :). it's so fun and so amusing to watch is change colour. my mom's hands are very cold. when i asked her to put it on that day, the ring changed to its coldest colour :P. as in the colour it changes to when it is coldest. then it was very funny :D. we watched moulin rouge that day!!! aah it's so nice... the story is so... touching [aww...]... no but really it's so sweet but so sad too. the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return :D. our batch skit is quite crap lah. feel in a fluster or something nowadays. there's like a million things to do and er ok. we have to practice the skit, make the props, practice the inunion songs etc etc. wish we hadn't started the skit so late :(. haiya whatever. and viewing is tomorrow. crap. and half our actors tomorrow are going to be stand in cos like people can't come and all that. heex whatever. things will turn out fine somehow. well somehow.
jasmine 8:56:00 PM
Friday, November 28, 2003
haha. playing bridge on the roof is so fun. it's like cool. and you can see ALL around you. :). there's this building near the school i like :). eyeballs likes another one cos she thinks it looks like a castle [so she thinks...]. then it started raining so we had to go back down :P. then we played cards a lot. we tried bridge with 4 dummies :D. even better than that day when we had three dummies :). it was chao funny. then i decided to scram back home in case my mom starts scolding me again :P. and i've been asking her for a lot of money lately... she's getting fed up :P. i can't help it! one lunch is like 3.50 then she still says i use a lot of money :(. not like the canteen is open anyway [not like they will have a lot of business...]. so i don't even dare to ask for band funds now. and i still have to buy the presents o_O. and there's more people in the section now! *cries*. must wait until one day when she's in a good mood and ask her :(. haha my sis is doing some sneaky things on the other com but she won't let me look. and she still doesn't know i can see her in the reflection on the glass panel :P. it's something to do with psp :D.
jasmine 5:47:00 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2003
i'm like how bored. as i have been for the whole day. and i'm sick of all the games on my com. how boring life can get, when you have nothing worth doing nowadays...
jasmine 6:52:00 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2003
haiz. was very tired today. still couldn't wake up in the morning, despite the extraordinary amount of sleep i got yesterday [more than 9 hours!]. i almost wished i would just drop dead then i wouldn't have to get up. i would actually willingly sleep my life away if there wasn't the things to look forward to. and if my mom would let me :P. heex. k. spring cleaning was kind of sad, cos there was only 3 of us most of the time. but we still finished earlier than other sections and like last year, we were going around helping other people [though we weren't much help cos there were only three of us, and we would get called off to help someone else in the middle of doing something :P]. looked at the seconds files again today :D. still feel very proud of our work :D. heex :D. i suppose the firsts files are quite nice as well, in their own way... :P. thirds should pack their files *stares*. heex :). oh and we found out that jasmine's eyelashes are very very long and nice :). they curl up naturally or something and it's very natural and nice [?]. haha. remember how my maid persuaded me when i was about 5 or 6 that if i let her cut my eyelashes they'll grow even longer next time :D. she said i'll look like minnie mouse with pretty long lashes :P [i DID love minnie mouse at that time :D. she was like my storybook idol or something :D]. so i let her cut my eyelashes :P. don't know if it actually worked cos i don't know how long my lashes were at that time :P. think i was too short to reach the mirror or something :P. haha :D. whee :D. i want to go to sleep soon cos i'm so sleepy but i'm still too hyper to actually lie down long enough for me to fall asleep :P. heex :D.
jasmine 9:05:00 PM
Friday, November 21, 2003
dang. slept in today and woke up with a headache. and my eyes ache too. and i'm still tired. i want to go back to sleep but then my headache will get worse if i go and sleep now. and i can't sleep anyway. tragication. my whole day will be upside down. and i'm already missing my clarinet. heex :(. speaking of clarinets, wonder when aleathea will come back :(. the repairman should hurry up :(. horrid guy. hope i can use aleathea for inunion. heex.
jasmine 2:34:00 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2003
there are things people do that make them regret for the rest of their lives. they know they will regret it but do it all the same. like how brainless. but there are always the few people who are not able to control themselves and would much rather have the now convenience than the tomorrow happiness. it's like so me. i won't be able to stop myself even though i know it will bring me a whole lot of trouble. how saddening. heex :(.
jasmine 8:59:00 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2003
just an additional thought. why do people keep thinking ahead. it's like tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow what about today. it's so. practical. personally i like to think about yesterday :P. all the things that happened and could have happened. all the things that you did and did not do. well it's nice to be thinking about yesterday. it means you're not in a hurry to do anything at the moment! heex. gosh. if there were just one day when i could sit around dreaming and not feel guilty about it later. if there were just one day when i could think about yesterday without having to plan out what i have to do tomorrow. well. heex. that would be nice. i do love dreaming.
jasmine 10:49:00 PM
heex spent the whole day on my new layout. something totally maddening happened. i was almost done when i don't know why when once i published again to see the effects, my whole design was missing and there was this thing about someone complaining about the australian government or something. then when i went back to my templates page to see what had happened to my html, i saw my whole page consisting only of that stupid paragraph that i didn't even put there. and obviously my layout was gone. then i had to start all over again >|. it was damn irritating. well but i finished it anyway so heex :). heex is a nice word :):). heex to whoever destroyed my layout :):). invented it myself [at least i think i did]. haha. :P. proud of myself :). this is the first time since [void] when i designed the page myself. well of course the pictures were from the net, but the other stuff was made with psp myself :). doink :). haha. feelink hyper. watched a lot of tv but am not feeling sleepy yet. shall go and read newspapers later. hopefully i get bored and start feeling sleepy :D heex :D.
jasmine 10:24:00 PM
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